I put on the lotion that sits by the sink and my heart briefly pauses. I am electrified, it smells like your hair did that night. My bones start to rattle and hum to the rhythm that we had. The words "come here" shook like mortars on your lips. Those two syllables were explosives buried underneath the wall that stood invisibly between us. You were my bomb shelter. You were my compass, I always knew which way to go, in which direction I needed to travel, to find you. Even with zip codes and times zones and nearly a continent between us, I could still hear clearly your heart hammering into my ear. Sweet noise destruction. You were my furnace; defrosted, I held onto you, afraid that the cold would slow my blood again; more beats and I am more, less beats and I am less. With you I was anything, I was everything, I was no one and I was every person I knew I could be. All at once. You were my castle, no moat. You stood, humble and wearing that shade of soft slate that brought out the forests in my eyes. Salty rain affection. Your hands were my favorite umbrellas, shielding me from the dripping universe. Days with your sun and I melted into an ocean of infatuation. The nights with your moon irrevocably changed my tides. I am still swimming against them.