I don’t want to be lying
Alone in your arms
I don’t want to be telling the truth
With your calluses speaking to my belly
And your words getting lost in my ear
Did you feel it kick?
Did you?
Did you feel it?
I didn’t feel a thing
I am not unhappy
I am happy
I am not unhappy
I’m uncertain
Of what’s beating in my belly
Did you feel it kick?
I didn’t feel a thing
Will you make me an honest woman?
Will you do the math?
1+1+1
Is three
I’m so afraid
That’s what we’re going to be
I can’t be your wife
I’m so sorry I’m a liar
I love truth
As much as you
I loved the lie inside me
I loved the words you spoke
To the not ears
In my belly
And your shape
Filling the not space
Beside me
And your blood
And my blood
Telling stories inside me
Saying not not not
I am not happy
I am unhappy
I am not happy
I’m uncertain
Of what we do now
I didn’t want to be lying
Alone in your arms
But I wasn’t telling the truth