I'm gonna be honest with whoever reads this. The man I am today is not who I wanted to be. I've hurt the ones close to me and I can't stop it. This time I've ruined things and there isn't not turning back. I've lied and cheated on the one that was suppose to mean the world to me. What is wrong with me? Will I ever be helped and saved. The best thing for me to do is to stay away. I never thought I'd say this but you wasn't the walking disease. I am. I'm a plague. I honestly don't think I'll ever see my happy ending. I feel like Lex Luthor who tries to justify his mistakes. I can't do that. I will not allow that. If you ever read this I truly am sorry. I may be a ****** up person and hard to show emotion but you still mean something to me. I'm sorry for doing what I did. I'm sorry for all the times I hurt you. I don't deserve happiness for everything I've done. You do deserve the world and a lot more. I hurt you badly and I will never truly forgive myself for everything I've done. Maybe one day I'll be forgiven. Hopefully one day I'll be the best and loyal man a woman could ever dream of.