Promise me the next time i fall you let me smack my face on concrete
because darling i never deserved you .
While you follow through with your saint like abilities.
I'm choking on shame and if only regret was a four letter word
i think i could understand it a bit more...but what do i understand anyways?.

self destruction with a staged smile
my pen touching the paper as if i can write the words
to make amends with myself...with you..
Words are powerful but my actions are worse
and you always knew i was never good with words.
It isn't love that hurts this much.
It's hurting the only person that ever loved me.