Just because I never cried doesn’t mean I never cared
I realize, looking back, there are things I should have shared.
I guess, in a way, I was too inexperienced and scared…
Perhaps, for a girl like you, for once I wasn’t prepared.
If only we could see the future, if only we had foresight…
For so long, I tried so hard to keep things good and right.
I tried so hard, I truly did…I tried with all my might
But it seemed like the harder I tried, the more all we did was fight.
Fond memories of us now seem like glass shards upon the floor.
Now, my last memory of you – sadly, you walking out the door.
Now, I live in agony, the only victim of this war…
Now alone, I must live with your last phrase – “I don’t love you anymore…”
I shake my head in disbelief, shocked by what I hear…
“That couldn’t be what you said…I mustn’t have heard you clear.”
“No!” you say with anger, “every word was sincere!”
And so, with all emotion, I cry just one last tear.
But who is speaking these haunted phrases in my head?
You’re gone, long gone, and I’m alone here on the bed.
Perhaps now, with happiness, my soul can finally spread.
But, then again, knowing myself, I’d rather die instead.
So now, looking upon the broken memories, I finally see what you mean.
And now, I set out to kill the beast, in my head, unseen.
Do you think perhaps I can finally end this nightly routine?
And finally remove the final cog from your failure of a machine?
Oh well, who cares? It’d be useless not to try.
After all, didn’t you convey once that it’s better not to know why?
Well, your secretive ways may not bear a reason for reply,
But my final choice is flawless – you need not worry to deny.
So, to you, my internal love, I bid thee a long needed adieu.
Because of you, I can finally say with these things I’m through.
But guess what? In this final act, you alone have the best view!
So now don’t fear fate, darling – this is justice long overdue.