he is always here, invading my unquiet mind,
what if, why didn't i, what might happen...so unkind.
holding my attention on an unsettled life,
phantom worries, negative thinking, and unnecessary strife.
i constantly ask him to leave, but he has no way out,
you see i created him and feed him, all to fuel my doubt.
without him i'm lost, agitated, a life in disarray,
he is always what i've known, a guide to show the way.
he puts on a special lens, affecting all i see,
distorting reality, an agitated reality, known only to me.
i have a secret though, someday he will depart,
he'll fade away, with the last beat of my restless heart.