i like to sit. and wait. and watch.

and feel. the time pass. the wind blow through my hair.

i'm staring back at you. and her. and them.

the thought brings bile to my throat.

the taste of sand is in my teeth and i can't stop.

im spinning reeling wondering how. i can't bring myself.

to laugh to cry to strike you down.

you demon. dragon. delusion.

don't try to confuse me. i wont let you abuse me.

you can't.

there's a fire here.

so this is just a little reminder that you are the past.

i loved you but YOU didn't last.

it's not me it's you. i can't take this one more second.

i'll run to the beach and light a smoke and breathe in the cancer i'd much rather

have then You.