Remember that you are the root of your own heart ache, he said. I looked at him and believed him because that’s all I’ve ever done since we’ve been together. And now after a year five months we split. And he tells me that I have been helping her heal since May this year. I honestly thought we could fix it, but that’s pretty ****** up. I have only ever been honest with him… I guess I really messed up for telling him that I felt something when I hugged one of my past flings. And he jumped and called me names. Pushed me to leave him. I couldn’t sleep, like now. I woke up in the morning crying. I wanted him back. I love him insanely, but he told me about the since May girl and I feel drained. I can’t keep up… I mean he is obviously gonna have to always help her heal by telling her he is hers. So much for being related… I don’t even know whether what I’ve just typed makes sense.