Little bits of feeling shaken loose by friendly i love you's
This is how it happened last time. took a long time.
But it snuck in and broke loose all preconceived notions of
"this is all we could ever be"
it was scary the first time but this time it's horrifying
and i promise "mi sol" that it's nothing against you
it's just i've had a world ripped apart by a best friend before
and i do not know that i want you to have that power
because before, the person i least expected to abuse it, misused it.
and maybe used me.