This is an awful life I'm living.
I hope it's close to ending.
I'm lost but I'm done looking to be found.
I'm just one face among many on this ground.
The world is blue and green
But to me gloom is all that's seen
I'm looking at this mess I've made
Just hoping this pain and fear will fade
I am not okay, no not today
I will never see another May
I'll say goodbye to this world
Leaving this place that has my mind swirled
So I say farewell to this cruel place
These last words said in a happy disgrace