I wear this fake smile for you to see
how happy you think you are making me...

I choke on my tears so you won't see
  the broken woman you made me to be...

I try to find the love that we lost somewhere
  in the beginning of our first lust affair...

I wish for the way things were for us like before
  but as Edgar Allen Poe's "The Raven" said...Nevermore!!