they ask you not to leave
       wishing you would
mocked and ridiculed by "friends"
   who were never there
a joke to many
            but
it was never their fault
blame is abundant but it was always on you
        change is never easy
you need to want it
spiraling into a pit of depression and bad decisions
that was never the answer
go back to the drawing board
         make your own change
you hurt more than you were hurt
fix it
love
    fix
keep at it