-Joelena Saldana
12/9/14
I should have known what you'd do. I'm sick of your mind ****. I'm so ******* sick and tired of your **** period! Just leave so I can forget your lies, your *******. I have better things to do. I no longer need you. Stop leading me on with the things you promise, but never do. I loathe you, I deeply and most definitely hate you. But the fact that I'm supposed to love you makes me hate you more. And the fact that deep deep down I love you makes me hate myself. I know what you do Father. I know all your mind games and tricks, so don't pretend that it's nothing but the truth.
They all end the same. The disappointed, sad, and crying in bed. Hating you for leading me on, hating myself for knowing what you do, but thinking that that time it would be real. It's like I'm setting myself up for heartache, misery, and ******* shame.
So just be gone. Stay away and out of my life. If you're not going to be real and stay true, you're nothing but a fake and a liar.
I am so **** ashamed of your emotional abuse.