speak
for once
& I promise I won't
stay so silent

I miss our
philanthropic musings
& every time you forgot I had
your CDs

why do I keep
writing about you?
you never read
these ****
things

I'm gonna get caught
some day
& not be able to
explain myself

at first I thought
I should always be this
slightly drunk
so I might tell you
not only the truth
but everything else in between

tomorrow I'll wake up
& know it was a
stupid idea

someday I'll grow up
my friend
someday I'll stop
thinking of
you

I could say so much
right now

but I couldn't bear to
give you away



I love my family
& I know you love yours
too

why are we so star-crossed?
maybe we're not


maybe its just
me