My perception of love was always based on ***. i thought you sliding in
between my thighs on those late nights was love and i fooled myself into thinking that.

Every boy I've came across, has only seen whats on the outside, they've never wanted to explore what was inside me or the beauty i behold unless they were inside me and somehow I've told myself that its okay for them to destroy me.

I've never been able to find love within myself but..fake it until you make it right? i am struggling with life, with love, with myself.
i feel like winter, my soul is an endless blizzard, my heart is cold and i can no longer feel...