Dearest Cassandra, I'm very sorry for whom I've, lately, been - and for the person that I will not ever be. I, truly, wish that I could have, ever, seen - whatever it is that you smile at in me. I wish that I could see: why you crave a mess - a mess as tragic as this- troubled mind. You see: I see- myself as, very much, less - than you see me with your eyes- so kind. I have never seen what you- adore about me - and, honestly, I likely never, ever, will. When I look into the mirror, all that I can see - is a man, or a boy, broken from all o' thee powders n' pills.