tired tired tired
dreaming awake in tears
reality is away
unknown
sharp
cold
alone

tired tired tired
how can I live like this
my head is a liar
never ever sleeps
and neither do I
how could I
scared
I may never wake up
the liar will take me
and wake up in my place

how will I ever
sleep again
why would I when
this mind of mine
created a world
of numbers
of patterns
of habits
of pain of loneliness of fear of despair

how can I fight
why would I
get angry
when the lies
took my strength away
slow
lazy
I count

one two three
the windows
one two three
the door
one two three
the sheets

one two three
but how can I check if I'm real