To say I am crushing on you is to say that the titanic had a "little accident." For it is so so so much more. My heart hurts because I know that you and I will never be together. I know that we can love quietly in the dark on weekend nights. But I know that as soon as the sun is up our moment is over. I try to stay up all night with you so that we can spend time together and share secrets and love endlessly, but the sun comes up too early every **** time and it hurts so badly to accept the reality that you and I will only be a nighttime feeling. Mr. Sun has a way of renewing us with energy and ideas, and reminding us that it is time to separate in the light of the day. I want you to take my hand and lead me to somewhere that you and I can make love as loud as we want without anyone hearing. I crave your gentle kisses and I crave to hear your laugh. I want to hear your laugh when I'm falling asleep and when I'm waking up, and every moment in between. I have never loved someone so innocently. Tonight I spend 4 hours watching tv (which is boring and a waste of time) just to be in your presence and to hear you laugh and happy. I like to be around you as much as I can and it makes me so happy when you are always so smiley and happy. If only you knew what your smile did to me. Tonight I sat and watched you amused by a ******* squirrel flying an airplane and I just silently wished that one day you would be that amused by the presence of me. That one day you would decide you need me in your life, that you would call me on a lazy afternoon and confess your long lost love for me. But I am not foolish. I know this will not happen. I know that I have slowly fallen in love with your presence and I know that I am so ******* because I like you so **** much. I love the way you wake and bake and I love the way you are so **** absentmindedly cute yet you pick up on things I never realized you did. I love the way you laugh at everything and I love the way your smile and laugh is so electrifying and makes everyone feel so good because it is pure innocent amusement in your eyes. I love the way you are gentle and slow, making up your mind carefully and cautiously.

This is so bad...