You asked What being fourteen felt like. Well, It feels like when your teacher drops all of her papers In the parking lot after school And it’s windy and you help her pick them up Chasing down every last one. And then in class you help her erase the board sometimes. But still, When someone plays a prank Her eyes are on you. Because your parents are divorced. And your brother was a troublemaker. But was he? He’s been diagnosed, They call it autism now. And so you TP her house Just proving that she’s right Because after three years in her class She still can’t spell your name right. And it’s an easy one. And then she holds you after class Because someone stole her stapler And you’ve never stolen anything In your whole life And you don’t know why she’s asking you. But you do. So you spray paint her garage And the whole school knows it’s you. There aren’t any other suspects. Because they know that your mom Doesn’t even believe in God And they’re pretty sure You don’t either. So then you’re standing in her yard And for some reason the cop that drove you there Left his lights flashing across the lawn. And she’s saying things like I don’t know why this happened. I’ve always been nice to her. She needs someone to look out for her. The adults nod along and she says to you now If you ever want to come to my house We can talk or bake cookies and hang out. And you laugh because you want to cry Because she’s talking for the cop As red lights flash across her garage But you hope she means it. And you write her a note saying I’m sorry And I’d love to come make cookies But she never writes you back And she never calls on you in class. And her son is younger than you But still he pushes you in the hallways So you’re even meaner to him. And now it’s not just her that knows that you’re a bad kid. And still sometimes you help her erase the chalkboards.