when I close my eyes
you will never know what I see from the inside
everything that I once knew is slowly beginning to die
I have given up
I have reached the end
when will this pain stop
a broken heart that can't be mend
my stomach is twisting
my vision gets thick
the truth and the lies, have left me with nothing but the want to die
why do I feel so ******* lonely, when they say all you need is yourself
my life is a lie
my life is a ******* lie
and now it's time for me to say goodbye
I've lost my mind and I am own my own
to hell I go cause it's all I've known
my stomach is twisting
my vision get thick
I try to ignore the pain, to keep on climbing
it's to dark to see how far I have left to go, and I dare not gauge my progress
my grip is slippery with blood now
my muscles already threaten to betray me
I scrape to the side, looking for another way
the beauty of the night offers such strange comfort
it is unchanging
immune to the wars of this world
something to count on, i scramble to my feet and run
the fear in my head beckons me to continue
but anther voice
one that has become all to familiar, reasons that I will be useless
I'm likely to stumble from sheer exhaustion and in this harsh land of jagged rocks and steep ravines, a stumble can lead to death
my eyes flutter
light and pain burst across my body, sharp as daggers
bone deep
I cry out, but the breath in my lungs spread like fire beneath my chest