make me smile make me laugh make me never have the thought of the blade crossing my skin again and again make me feel worthy make me change i need to stop...
but then when i get alone and have my space with my mind she begs me she crys if i dont do it she hates me she abuses me if i dont
she runs and laughs; when the pressure is pushed down she slids down the slide; when its dragged slowly along my flesh.
she loves me for it she comforts me she forgives me after for hesitating she lets me know that everythings going to be better