Contemplating
That's all I do
The way I am
I estimate the existence of myself
Constantly in thought
Ever wondering
Ever doubting
Never knowing
But always
Guessing
 
To see what I see
You have to be half insane
To understand my mind
You'll have to be out of yours
 
For mine never stops
Reality ever changing
My thoughts morphing
Twisting
 
And me
I'm always changing
New revelation
Every moment of the day
Never staying in one state of mind
Just who I am
 
Day to day
I can be someone new
And you’ll never notice
For I never show it
 
In this reality all you see is a guy
But in mine
I don't even call myself human
I'm some thing more and less
I control my fate
And my fate controls me
I am dragged by my love
And I hold it up
I show my heart
And never die
 
My reality is so much more beautiful
But much more painful
For I get to come back to this reality
Where all my dreams are just that
And I mean nothing more than what I can do
 
Contemplations
That's my reality
That's what drives me
That's what I see
When all is clear
I see questions
Where none exist
This reality is my damnation
And my reality is my redemption