I'm not an idiot
I know I'm gifted
I know I seem like I don't allow myself to fully grasp my potential
Say what you wish
I have a method in my life that has worked
Sell your self short
But exceed all of your expectations
And when I follow this mindset
I see I'm happy
Is that not what we all are looking for
I just find myself exceeding with simple expectations
And slowly building my skills
I am not an average kid
I am not the kid that wishes to be more
I am happy
That's all there is
I'm happy
When I started writing
I had little to no expectation
All I knew was this simple act made me logical
But look at me now
I'm using this simple tool to not just improve my self worth
But my projection
What others see
That’s who I am
I don't do something just to exceed
I do it because I want to
When I exceed I do not say
"I will be better"
But instead I just do
Learn
Progress
Watch something
Of which I had no expectation
To thrive into a life style
A thing not to be my soul
But to express it
Not to define me
But to mold my definition
But with me finding things I love
I also see people trying to use my love
Try to make my love into something more
With these new expectations
It makes it all worse
Instead of just letting something progress naturally
And fully
I try to exceed to become what their eyes see
To be what gives them hope
And when I do not meet these expectations
That's when I tell myself I've failed
When I say, "just go back,
Go back to what made you happy"
And so I throw all expectation down and regress
Not because I'm scared of progress
Just that progress isn't what makes me happy
It's the simple process of being
I fall in love with
The present
If it leads me to a place so be it
But I like to get there my own way
And time