i've been so destructive lately
just to somehow get him to stop
haunting my mind
to find some way to cure myself
of this disease that is
the illusion that it's just
him and me
the worst part of it all is
i know **** well
that when i see him again he'll
look at me with those hypnotising eyes
and i'll see lust and infatuation and
confuse it with passion and love

i'll fall for him all over again

because after all
once i've loved someone as
much as i love him
it's hard to ever stop