Holden Caulfield 2. That movie that I saw last weekend that I thought you would like 3. The mix tapes you made me. I still listen to them in my car 4. The way I dance and wondering if you would like it if you saw me. 5. The Kooks and how you hate them. 6. Hospice 7. Late nights sleeping alone and knowing you're awake, but oh so silent. 8. Wondering if you're thinking about me too 9. The poems you wrote me. Your handwriting is classy. 10. The picture of Hilary Duff on my desk reminding me to be good 11. My bed and how you used to be there. 12. My friends and how you used to be one of them 13. Uptown 14. My ticklish spots that no longer get touched 15. My cat... he misses you. 16. Speaking Spanish and how you used to correct it, and sometimes be impressed 17. Wearing bows in my hair. How you used to love them. 18. The clothes I bought at that thrift store yesterday. I wonder if you'd like them. 19. Mehermahermahermaherm 20. Listening to Bright Eyes. 21. Listening to the sound of loneliness. 22. Coffee and how you say "Americano" with a roll of the tongue. 23. The last bit in my tea and how it's "too sweet to swallow." 24. Sitting close on the couch. Your hand stroking mine. Sneaking a kiss on the cheek. 25. Missing busses and missing you. 26. How I used to cheer you up. 27. The stars and sheep and roses. 28. Seth Rogan 29. Meditating and how I can't do it with you constantly clogging up my brain. 30. Laughing 31. I never learned to salsa dance with you and your brutally honest hips. 32. Carrot Creme Brulee 33. Hand dance duets 34. The empty spaces between my fingers 35. Your grey corduroy pants are my favorite. 36. When you called me your coriΓ±o. 37. How you would have scoffed at me copying and pasting an "Γ±". 38. Attempting to show you music you would like. 39. Failing at showing you music you like. 40. Sending you hearts. 41. Arching my back. 42. Eating ice cream and how I'm better when it's here. 43. How I'm better when you're here. 44. How Cory is better when Topanga is there. 45. Italian Night Clubs 46. You and Me and Everyone We Know 47. Tyronne Street 48. Ice Land 49. Getting lost. 50. Drunken parties and thrashing fists. 51. Second chances 52. Being half of something. 53. Wearing your cardigan 54. Long embraces and never wanting to move. 55. Doing my homework with you sitting next to me. Not letting you read over my shoulder 56. Teaching you about the body. 57. Your smile, and how you give a little chuckle every time I see it. 58. How we used to laugh about nothing. 59. Really bad cookies. 60. Butter face. 61. Jealousy 62. Hating modernized Shakespeare 63. Confessions 64. Embarrassed faces buried in pillows 65. Incredulous about me hating Elvis 66. Miles ******* Davis 67. Singing softly to the radio 68. Playing the piano. Singing for you when you're not around. 69. Wondering if you're reading this right now. 70. Hoping that you've gotten this far down the list. 71. Be the Pitta to my Vata 72. Kate Upton has saggy *****. 73. I just want to make spaghetti with you. 74. How you hate ellipsis 75. Wondering whether or not I spelled that correctly because I know you would judge. 77. Leaving tearful voice-mails 78. John Lennon and Yoko Ono's Rolling Stone cover 79. Looking at art, wishing I was Monet. 80. My sundress on the floor. 81. Not seeing that new movie in theaters (the one that won all those Oscars) because I only want to see it with you. 82. Getting angry when Kacie B. didn't get the rose on the Bachelor and knowing you're angry too because Courtney ***** as a person. 83. I'm an ugly crier. 84. Hitting bread pans 85. Your green plaid jacket 86. Vulgarity 87. Insecurity 88. "Back and forth. Forever." 89. How that one song reminds you of me and I still don't know why. 90. How you deserve the best 91. It makes me sad that I'm at number 91 and you're still nowhere to be found. 92. Going to ballet class with the anticipation of seeing you afterward. 93. You asking me how ballet was, whether you were interested or not. 94. whispers "Let me be your hero." 95. Never seeing your fur vest. 96. Holding hands when we shouldn't have. 97. Velvet leggings 98. The last wonder of the world. 99. I fear that I will forget what your face looks like. 100. Reaching one-hundred with so much more to say.
Alternative title: 100 Things I Have to Give Up If I Want to Live