I am tired (I know) of the
what if’s, the what was
or what will be.
I am tired of the emotions
(inside) which seem to
control my thoughts.
I am tired (do you know?) of the
conflict between
the ‘what this is’ and
‘what this is not’.
Because it is: neither
and/or; it is/ is not; both
and neither.
I am tired (I think) of
being tired. Of keeping
it together; not cracking
on the surface.
Because honesty this time has
failed to cure these
symptoms,
like before.
I am tired. Just
tired.
But I won’t let
You go.