Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It's easier to keep going this way.

The alcohol keeps me sane,
The **** keeps me calm.

I've lost so much
I don't have the will to keep going.
I don't have the desire to remember
Because all the memories bring is pain.

Sometimes I forget what sober feels like
And that's fine by me…
If I could never be sober again,
I don't think I'd mind.

I want to forget the disaster
That has become my life.
I don't want to feel
Anything
Ever again.

I've got slices in my wrist,
Words carved on my thigh,
And a self hatred deeper than the ocean.

If I could go to sleep and not wake up
It would be a blessing.

Living my life in a perpetual state of half sobriety
It's the only way for me to keep going.