I dated a guy once
He said I love dating a poet
They see detail like artists but explain it in a way we can all understand
They see pain and and express it to give hope
They don't deny thair love even if it is wrong
I loved that man and I still do
But a week ago he said
I can't keep this up
You see flaws in me that I turn a blind eye to
You make it all seem fine when there is nothing as such
All I can do is be my self but you make me seem more and less all at once
He has not talked to me since
I can't say if it is my fault
But if I can see, should I be to blame
all ofl his imperfections that he saw in himself
I only saw the truth
The truth that he is
The truth that no body else was him
But who am to say these things even if I see them
Even if I still love him
It pains me now to look backwards and know all I said I would not take back
Maybe I'm stubborn or selfish but I love him too much to not say my mind
He is as great as I say even if he won't say it in turn
I do not pity him for not seeing himself as he is
I just wished he could see who I am
A man who always wanting to meet a standard
A man who never found a standard
The boy who wished for love
And doubted it would ever come
The person who finally found what he was looking for and loved what he found
But none of that mattered anymore
I lost my love
I'm not so naive to say he was my last
Hell no! He's not that **** special
I will go out again with my knowledge and not wait but look for some one else
Someone that I once thought was impossible to find
To seek the happiness I sought
because I had it once and lost it
And I need to let out my feelings that I once kept to my self
If I could talk to him one last time I would not say I loved him
I would not say I hate him but I would thank him
Thank him for the experience
And for his truth and give him this poem and say you made me better
you are not me, and I am not you. I will alwase live with you in my heart
But I won't let that shackle me down. I am not the man that fell in love with you
I am better
I will never be the same