Sinking Deeper
I sink into my cold empty bed at night
anchored down with guilt and pains
tossing and turn from all the memories
that burn in my head
he proud all his hatred onto me
he tells me I had earned it
I put a pillow over my head
hoping I wouldn't hear a thing
but my conscience buried deep beneath
my heart stuck in a skeleton of lies
my eyes can’t see happiness it is so far out of reach
I would hear his voice telling me
You can only get so far with no one by your side
A dark storm lies ahead with his words of lies
Oh, how I cry just wishing he would get out of my mind
You can never take back the seed you sowed
the cards you dealt on this long and lonely road
This dark throne is a place of sad and loneliness
pains of desire that sets the heart on fire
tainted lust that turns to dust
in a flame of shame
nothing to gain
only the rain.

Poetic Lilly Judy Emery (c)