I think of all the air I’ve breathed Happily ******* it in to the maximum, and then That time he forced it down Swallowed my “no” with his tongue Both instances equally oxygenated
Why are the somber, sober selections always unequivocally deeper in their loveliness Scathing crisscross critique Harsh words cannot dampen my fire Hot and smoky I inhale
Steaming in this teepee from my fourth grade field trip some re-creation of real civilization absent was the metallic machinery I long for stars brighter than Plastic Hollywood
Ten and I convinced your mother I had died in a car crash The first instance of my violent imagination My conscience, sloth like, inverted blame Like a sock turned inside out I wished what I said was true
Years later I started the slow process of intentionally dying Stupid girl I was. Unoriginal like the others Only sewed up my holes. They asked me if I had a plan Spitefully silent and still I did not reply because I did not care to
The rolling hills of my temper Emerged as I exited the binding comfort of my home Young adulthood in all its glorious newness left me devoid Of confidence in my ability to breathe on my own Therapy and tablets forced me to care
Today I am high I spew words You don’t write poetry she says Playing with words like string It runs through my fingers, loose then taught, then a mess of tangle on the floor