I should be so happy
“Should”
I have a nearly perfect life compared to others
Yet I drift from day to day in a haze
My days run together and I can’t keep track anymore
I look up at the amazing stars in the sky which I used to find beauty in
And now all I see is darkness and clouds forming a tight grip around me
I’m not even wearing a mask anymore because I don’t have the energy to put it on
Hell, I don’t even have the energy to be depressed
Each night melts into a day and a day into a night
Endlessly and slowly driving me to my imminent mental grave
Why can’t I snap out of this like I used to?
I mean, I should be really happy
“should"