My Pain is everywhere I turn. My Pain is what I live from day to day. My body hurt and my Doctor can't do nothing about it . I mean **** they give me medications but do it work, hell no, so I go back and far and still nothing. I see different specialist and still nothing. So pain is my life, I try to run from the pain but can I hide from it, No. Pain is my life no matter where I turn its there. **** I have people in my life  that say you will be alright or God got you. And don’t get me wrong I love my positive people in my life. But they are only geeking me for failure. My Pain is  just what it is for the rest of my life. There no winning from the pain. I'm not going to win this battle, no matter what people  say to make me think otherwise. Before you know it I'll be somewhere and no one will remember me or who I was to them. **** I can pretend to be happy and put a smile but who will I be fooling, no one but myself If I try like everyone else is. I mean there nothing in this world would make me think that the pain is no longer with me. **** I wake up with my pain and I go to sleep with my pain. I mean **** there nothing in the world that will take the pain, **** no medication.  but it's cool just as long as I know that I have the pain and it's not going nowhere or nothing I can do about it. I have to have that what every attitude for the rest of my life my pain.