You dragged me tensed and hyped from my winter's cave
I was jittery
and giddy
and ready for spring greens.
Frightening black evening precipices came and went
smoothing themselves and smothering frown lines.
There was ringing in my head when it was empty of you.
I prayed this would stay. My warmest of winter coats.
Never my boldest and bulkiest of thorniest  fright.

and days passed.

Belligerence met our tepid introduction.
Red, and raw, and worrisome were their reactions.
Holding tighter you began to
f
a
l
l
I fought (no longer scared).
Fought to keep a warm January day turned to February, to springing mid 70s.
To keep out of my long musty cave,
but whipping wind from their mouths pulled eagerly backwards.

and days passed

silent. steady. always ready. no demands. only wishes. only fondest hopes.
and it was all yellow
and everything hurt.

and someday passed

When it was warm, when you were ready
you let go
and held me tighter
weak/faint/smoggy/dust to ashes to life/dawned understanding
at the mouth of a blooming cave
I thought perhaps you were mine
for somewhere along the way
I became helplessly
[entrapped]

Let me show you
Let me hold this tangled hair full of insecurities for you to study
Let me shove in more doubts, perhaps then you'll see.
Fondness.
Cherry coke.
Learn to be
to be hale and hearty
and love with only what you know when you hold me.