i'm listening to varsity and thinking of how much you'd like this song and i'm still up because i'm thinking about you and how much i really just want to be with you and how i think i wouldn't mind going to sleep and never waking up if you were lying down next to me and sometimes i replay that night in my head and i can pinpoint the exact moment i think i fell in love with you (when everything unblurred and focused and became clear and when everything felt real for the first time)

(missing you would be an understatement)

(good night, i love you)