My grandmother passed too early Cancer And my mom went to get checked I think about her death too often
How can I live motherless like her With no mother to coax me through
I imagine my head in a lap My hair being stroked, only, It’s not her, It’s Amelia Earhart And she’s singing to me about journeys and daughters I imagine the grieving, days of just sitting And then one day getting up to paint the whole house blue
It starts with a room With the extra paint in the attic Amelia’s not freaked She sits on the couch eating an apple And I scrub the walls With coat after coat of briny breeze
The funeral is hell My father would want a closed casket And I’d just imagine her in there Hands still warm
I’d want someone, and Amelia would stand next to me Still in her suede flying jacket and goggles She’d squeeze my hand and whisper She’s lucky. Or something like that