I've already let it go
At least that's what I tell myself
I know she's better off without me
I've always known that
I'm just selfish
That's all there is to it
I see something beautiful
And want to make it mine
Not my place
I'm waiting for the lights to go out
The wind to blow with a fury
Hard enough to make me forget about you
For a little while
The sounds of this house
numbing
The television too loud
The faces longing for my attention
So ill eat something
I'll drink tonight
Expecting to express how pathetic I feel
How pathetic I am
I won't communicate
Not to those that really matter
I rarely smile here
I'm lost in the impossible
Selfish
A fact
I wont even try to fake it anymore
Like it doesn't hurt
Like it doesn't matter
That's what she wants