i think i can only juggle [x] many bad habits at once
only come within [x] feet of the edge of self-destruction
drop one [ex], swap it out with another {puff}
meditate in the morning,
cry & scream in the afternoon,
sigh in the evening.

>>>bits of wax seal on my floor
time to seal all that up again.

and as for you, M
are you the crazy one,
or is it all in my head?<<<

after your heart is torn open
they say to not let yourself harden.
i thought I was doing my **** best,
but maybe I'm just bitter
for not getting what i wanted.

i like to think i can take things
preface and limit-free
but i'm starting to realize one "wrong" thing
can change the course of my whole being

this brain's got me feeling like "i'm out to lunch"
"lost my marbles"
[want to get] "out of my mind"