there's a hole
widening inside
pushing to each corner
stretching the muscles
until I feel it in every limb

it's like a sickness
a poison
disease
all my doubts
fears
eating away until
there's nothing left
except a promise
from you

could I reach out
touch the stubble along your jaw
and kiss you
deeply
confidently
in love and lust

you're just a message
a phone call
an email
away
but so far
from the strings
pulling at my chest
begging you to come
and stay