venus wanted to not take care of herself,
she wanted to let everything that couldn't withstand time
to rot off of her

she remembers herself
in memoriam
she looks back
she contemplates why she is alive.
what she needs to do to find happiness

she scares people
demanding what she cant have
wanting the impossible

shes headed in the wrong direction
shes been headed in the wrong direction for a long time

wanting to go to the beach (at night)
because no one does 'it' for her

she's unproductive
scoping out men
needing to be creative
but not knowing how

waiting for the new moon
hoping for a new moon
wanting to be filled again