on the wagon, off the wagon driving the ******* wagon off the road and i woke up crying in that ditch i tried sobriety but there is a lot of shame leading down that path these days i watch my beard grow the string of confusing thoughts is stretching a mind-**** of disorganized pictures underexposed faces, smiling for what reason, i wonder? that head-worm ******* me dry i still get out of bed (most mornings) to a soiree of boredom a cocktail-party of great pretenders what is the sum total? i wish i was still in that ditch crying my heart out drunk