i sat on the decrepit chesterfield near the window with a half-empty bottle of whiskey and a pack of cigarettes pondering about death pondering about trivialities because i had nowhere to go the roads were closed the churches have been burnt the bars were filled with ****** i was lost my soul was empty i have walked the streets every hour every day wearing threadbare overcoats and fedoras from the strangers i slept with my feet were trying to find the right path but i was so lost the lights have flickered out the birds have stopped singing and the madness have stopped cauterizing my throat