It felt nice to hold her again. Basketting her with my arms and legs, I brought our bodies closer together. She had that same heavy breathing from before. She put her head on my shoulder and I put mine on hers. She stroked my arm. It's been about 4 months since she's done that. It's been about 4 months since I've held her like this. I still don't understand why. She says the same. I guess I blame it on myself. I know it's not my fault, but I'll blame myself. I blame it on myself.