It was fitting That it rained every day that summer The clouds hung low And pressed precipitation into the pavement The sun was shining and the streets were glistening The atmosphere came down to our level As though to say You are grounded The grass was green As though to say You are alive And the wind was calm As though to say You are still Mother Nature seemed to be taking maternity leave To nurture neglected nights Passed absent of distraction To water wandering willows Weeping empty wisdom The sky cried for us When we were too busy to pretend to be anything But grown Sunken clouds dirtied the horizon So we could forget that we were not clean Cumulonimbus occluded the sky So we did not have to worry about flying away Held tight our skin secured secrets Soothed violent visions Made our minds a bit more watered down. That summer something changed In the sharpness of the morning The sun was no longer a surprise Sleep became something I did at night My conversations with you Became something saved for the last sip Of a handle of *** And your name was replaced With him, you, the boy You were a dream I woke up from, I had been asleep Long enough. That summer it was spring It was the renaissance Torture was no longer the norm So I learned to stop loving you With my hands Holding fire love With paper palms Or maybe I was the fire And we were paper mache I still donβt know If I was the consumer or the consumed But on the back of a broken trail I learned to be neither Do no harm And take no **** Be as strong as an oak Move your home from volcano To valley And vacate the wrath of want That summer I learned to reconcile A childβs heart With adult problems I learned to raise my character With a self-esteem that said something With a throat that echoed more Than him, you, the boy That summer something changed And finally it was me.