I find pictures of you
I tear up pictures of you
I cherish pictures of you
I find myself on the unforgivingly cold tile floor silently screaming as tears leak from my eyes like a dripping faucet because of pictures of you

I have pictures in my mind
I have a picture of you kissing my neck tenderly
I have a picture of you holding me
I have a picture of you whispering in my ear while we were at the park drinking in each other's affection

I have regrets
Regrets reminded when I see pictures of you
I regret never dancing with you
I regret being shallow
I regret being selfish
I regret blaming every mistake on you because I couldn't come to terms with myself

I burned every picture of you
Yet they won't leave the backs of my eyelids
I still can hear you whispering sweet words of comfort in my ear like you were my water in this hell

Yet as heart wrenching as it is to see pictures of you
It's even harder to picture you with me