inserting the curved blade right next to the ******* of a downed doe he made a smooth and easy slit right to the base of the chest plate the entire gut pile slid near into his lap /
surely my skin matched the grey eyes of death as I watched him snip a long green ****** from a steaming red liver… the heart was next pulled and gently placed into a hat holding a giant liver his eyes twinkled with pride as he looked up at me /
my first **** was a good one 317 yards set the crosshairs right at the backbone bottom edge of the neck 223 bullet hit the front shoulder and rolled into the armpit sent bone fragments shooting through the lungs and heart….. I was a murderer /
the hollow carcass matched my heart as I shouldered the load and trudged back the 1.2 miles to camp only stopping twice to re-adjust my doom the smell of blood the weight of killing and a fat alfalfa fed doe led me to a difficult conclusion /
at 15 I had spent 8 years tagging along to ever trap line each fishing trip not during class hours multiple poaching’s and now my first legitimate ****, solo… my head spun /
wrapping the body in a mesh bag and hanging it in a Juniper I looked up at my shame and over into my father’s eyes…
it was the last time I killed… outside of the occasional mosquito or spider … /