Together we stand, Making up the snow-white abyss. Our souls, alike, become one. Then I realize how only a memory is this. And how the love I once felt is gone.
Alone now, only I stand, The painful nothingness that surrounds. My soul and body seem forever apart... Consciousness returns-and so I remember... What has brought me here from the start.
If only I could see you one las time... In presence, apart fom only in mind. With helpless hope I search again. Though I know nothing is all I will find; No life is left; my existance seems dead.
Maybe the memories of you that are in my heart Are enough to keep me strong... But when I realize, in the world around me, you're gone, I break down...I just can't go along... I suffer when I let myself know we're really apart.
Day apon night I continue to endure this... Sometimes I wonder if you too can't bare, Or if the white-abyss finds you as well. Would you too have been there? Is this pain something we share?
I force myself back to happiness; Into the wonderful, safe abyss. Yet this time when I begin to dream... I see the truth I needn't to miss; And I just can't make true this wish.
I wrote this years ago when I had no idea what love even was.