when your feet feel heavy like the are not your own lifting your head off your arm to see that you have 4 stops left
placing it down again forgetting to be acceptable you're too tired to care your mind is already on eggs and toast and silence
the day is so pretty it comes through your eyelids making it hard to concentrate and realize that you are you you can feel people whisper around you are you okay are you OKAY are YOU OKAY until it's become a deafening roar and the words don't even look right on paper O K A Y nobody is ******* okay everybody just deals with their **** some better than most and the ones that are best at hiding it are the biggest *******
most of the time i love the bus the mom getting on with her kids that turn around in the seat and poke me-i don't even mind the homeless people asking for money-well **** i've been hurting so i always give them something the end of shift city workers falling asleep in their jackets, their eyelids going lower and lower and their hands ***** of powder, cement, drywall waiters, waitresses always dressed their best after hours of doing what another person called upon first year college kids talking about which boy will be at which party impervious to outcomes, doing it again and again until they find something mutual old women who have seen more than anyone on here combined, where you stand up and want to hug them because *******! i hope i am that i am that old one day and i will not be nearly as nice
but then your stop comes and you get off as anonymously as possible and go to your "home" and those people you saw they will end up at their homes and who is going to be judging who then.