i am lost too everyone is, but nobody like you the only one that i think of everyday half of the time i have nothing to say
who am i to put myself in the shoes of others to understand the pain that they have felt, the nights where they were bleeding in a bathtub and i was thousands of miles away the nights they were screaming into pillows and wake up robbed of sleep the days where the only thing that would numb memories was ***** or blood
so self absorbed i've realized, i am my problems were the biggest but really
i can be happy in the sun coming through my windows at the right angle i can find pleasure in just walking to the bus awful things have happened to me but nothing like what happened to you.
i'm sorry i wasn't there i'm sorry i couldn't stop it i would have killed him i can't make you feel better because i don't know how
but you you are the most beautiful you are the most intelligent you are the best person i ever met what happened is not a part of you and i hope someday you understand that
i think of us crying and naked sitting with our knees up hugging in my bathroom i've never heard such desperation in your voice that is what scared me "help me, please help me" it just bounces in my skull until i want to shake you and hug you and tell you how loved you are
i don't know what to do and this isn't even a poem just something that might help me figure out how i can get through to you