I don't know what it is that makes me so much like a wall Something people like to lean against for balance but then it becomes a crazy request when the words begin to build I'm tired Not physically I'm not sure mentally either... I'm tired of laughing when all I can think about is the darkness I'm tired of sleeping when all I dream of are my worst fears awake I'm tired of waking up just wanting to curl over and to just close my eyes again I'm tired of feeling something then suddenly having it ripped away ripped away by some invisible entity called depression I can kiss and feel nothing at all I can lay quietly and have a whole war of words and imagination battling without a word or reason I can blink and feel an inevitable amount of grief pass by I can breath for hours then suddenly want to take the air from others I feel like I'm in a cycle of tired, okay, tired, not okay, okay... tired Sometimes I can yearn for such a love And hate just that moments later I'm confused at myself Confused at my emotions Confused at my heart and head Confused at why I feel so...