Weighed down
By dark desires
Burdened
By the love I have
Unable to keep you
Yet unable to let you leave
I've been here before
My heart is breaking
As I sit here staring at the floor
The tears are back
Burning as they always have
Bitter tears
For wants and wishes and dreams
That can never be
I've been here before
Crushed by promises that were broken
Before they were ever made
Torn apart
By the pain I feel inside
You are my darkest dream
You are my midnight fantasy
I want to go down with you
Into that world beneath the light
I want to slip away into oblivion
To be consumed
By the darkness that follows you
Wherever you go
There is romance
In your tragedy
There is a brilliance
In your despair
I love you and I hate you
I want you and I need you
You are everything
And I am nothing
I have been here before
Lost and confused
Unsure of what to do
Asking a God I don't believe in
For guidance
Screaming in my mind
Grasping for meaning
In something I cannot possibly understand
I have been here before
And it broke my heart
I have been here before
And I lost my mind
I have been here before
And it took the very breathe from me
I cannot go there again
I cannot.