Weighed down

By dark desires

Burdened

By the love I have

Unable to keep you

Yet unable to let you leave



I've been here before

My heart is breaking

As I sit here staring at the floor

The tears are back

Burning as they always have

Bitter tears

For wants and wishes and dreams

That can never be



I've been here before

Crushed by promises that were broken

Before they were ever made

Torn apart

By the pain I feel inside



You are my darkest dream

You are my midnight fantasy

I want to go down with you

Into that world beneath the light

I want to slip away into oblivion

To be consumed

By the darkness that follows you

Wherever you go



There is romance

In your tragedy

There is a brilliance

In your despair

I love you and I hate you

I want you and I need you

You are everything

And I am nothing



I have been here before

Lost and confused

Unsure of what to do

Asking a God I don't believe in

For guidance

Screaming in my mind

Grasping for meaning

In something I cannot possibly understand



I have been here before

And it broke my heart

I have been here before

And I lost my mind

I have been here before

And it took the very breathe from me



I cannot go there again

I cannot.